There are people who talk, and with every word they speak, you can just feel the ignorance and shallow thinking spilling out. Sometimes, I need to stop them mid-sentence to point out their cognitive bias because it’s just painful. Someone who’s suicidal isn’t weak, and trust me, it’s not the first thought that crossed their […] Waste more time

Today I saw an orange cat under a car, meowing sadly. I brought him some food. At first, he sniffed the food and wouldn’t eat. So I sat there, and gently petted him. Slowly, he began to trust me and started eating the chicken pieces I offered. After a few minutes, he pressed his little […] Waste more time

You know how some people say life’s a movie? Well, if that’s true, it needs a damn good soundtrack. Music’s that secret sauce that can turn a boring moment into something epic. (or tolerable) Point is, we need playlists for life. not just the big moments, but all the random in-between stuff too. I create […] Waste more time

I don’t know what it is about game design that pulls me in so violently. Maybe it’s the illusion of control (as if I have even a shred of control over my actual life) crafting systems, laying out rules, deciding how things work. Maybe it’s the unpredictability; watching a player completely ignore my carefully designed […] Waste more time

My mind was agitated. Like a bird trapped in a box, hitting every wall, trying to find a way out. My breath was stuck somewhere in my chest, heavy, like a stone pressing down. My hands moved on their own, searching around me, looking for something, anything, to make it all stop. I pressed myself […] Waste more time

It starts in my shoulders. an ache so deep, it feels like something is shifting beneath my skin. Tiny, disconnected fragments, like molecules twisted together in some strange, unshakable bond. They’re tied to each other by invisible threads, pulling at me from the inside out, each movement a reminder that I am stuck here. It’s […] Waste more time

12 a.m. again. Clock’s giving me that dirty look like it knows how desperate I am. Every night, it’s the same shit. me vs. this hour, like I owe it something. I don’t. It’s just there, heavy, waiting for me to crack. And I do, don’t I? My head’s a pit. dark, sticky, full of […] Waste more time

I’ve been stuck in my head all day (like I’m not all the time), scribbling these thoughts down because they won’t leave me alone. It’s funny how one little thing can flip everything upside down, isn’t it? Like a butterfly flapping its wings. next thing you know, there’s a storm halfway across the world. Makes […] Waste more time

I used to write in Google Keep. Just for myself. Thoughts that didn’t need a reaction, ideas that didn’t need a stage. At the same time, there was X; loud, exposed, things floating onto feeds they had no business being on. That never felt right. I don’t want to be seen like that. I don’t […] Waste more time